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Yes, I am struggling with resentment towards them and my husband. Or I am not sure if is distrust that I am struggling with cause of an unresolved issues and an inability to have freedom to talk of issues.I am trying to lay bitterness and resentment down. This weekend our church had a conference and I had to leave sometimes to think and pray. And I got peace about just being still. Be still and wait on God and pray. As for my husband I was thinking of this verse
1Pe 3:1  Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives
I am trying to get a Christian counsellor who will pray. I was previously going to counseling -  and her advice was leave the church but I just don't feel like I can because, honestly, it seems like I am the only one who has a real problem..like people recognize that there's stuff wrong but they see it as there is no perfect church. My counselor was a Christian but not necessarily a Christian counsellor (she did talkabout God and the Bible- but she didn't pray but I also didn't ask her to pray cause I was afraid to) but  I do want to include God by praying.
There is also a church who has a 9 a.m. service on Sundays and I was thinking of going there so I could maybe have a pastor who will care and see if I could hear a different message than what I am usually hearing.
I am afraid of what people will think, andWonder if the other church would be okay with it and also if it would cause drama with my church cause if they'd find out they'd be questioning why is she going over there?
Also, this weekend someone lost a couple hundred dollars it was brought to us and they announced it so it could be returned but when it wasn't claimed right away the pastor said publicly that he would put it in the offering if it went unclaimed.
The couple who found the money and I also was not comfortable with having that money put in the offering. We thought it should be brought to the police.( We were going to talk to the pastor if it went unclaimed).
Turns out the money was claimed and the person who claimed it knew the exact amount and bills it was, and he ended up donating it anyway. So it worked out, but I have a problem that it was even suggested that it would be put in the offering.
Am I making a big deal of this? Like it very concerns me. I guess, how it makes me feel is like untrustworthy.and maybe lacking integrity cause if we had found that amount we should return it to the police.
Anyway, I apologize this is dragging on. After saying all this, I think I do need help to process and deal with this. I don't know what a big deal is, or if I just think it's a big deal when it isn't.😥.
Thank you for listening and also, it was hard to hear that I am resentful cause I am trying hard not to be. I really want to forgive cause forgiveness is vital.
Vengeance belongs to God and He can do a better job at fixing people up than I can❤️
Also, I want to add, thank you for pointing out the weaknesses, that I do need to be careful to not be resentful and also, I am weak and must be careful about relationships.

I am Canadian, but this is a native church.
My husband doesn't know how they talked to me cause he wasn't there. I am not sure they would have talked to me like that if he was.
They really only talk to me when I approach them about concerns. They kind of get defensive and then be like ,well you have these problems. Almost like, don't talk about my problems when you have these. But their problems with me mostly have to do with the expectations they have.
I have never confronted people before this really. Like I know they come from abusive backgrounds ect. But I felt like it was wrong for her to say that to me.
I feel like if I try address this, it will also turn into another hurtful thing.

I have never seen this portrayed in this way...is this a post trib view?